Gratitude Post #6 – Thank you June

Gratitude Post #6 – Thank you June is the sixth instalment of my gratitude series.

If you are a regular reader of my blog you will know that I have had a difficult couple of months. I have had the soul crushing experience of an ectopic pregnancy. It has left my heart shredded. If it wasn’t for Molly and the support of my family I honestly do not know how I would have made it through the recent weeks.

But I did.

As a firm believer in always trying to find the good in every situation, and that everything happens for a reason, I am allowing myself to move on.

I feel guilty saying I am ‘moving on’. It feels as though I am leaving my angel baby behind without a care in the world. But that isn’t true. It is the only thing on my mind. All of the time. I will never get over it. But, it isn’t healthy for me to dwell and to not at least attempt to regain some normalcy. And it certainly isn’t fair on Molly. The world keeps turning, and I will keep moving along with it. Because I have to. Because I need to.

So, with positivity and gratitude as my only solace right now, I would like to say thank you June for:

Discharged from the hospital

I was finally discharged from the hospital this month. I have been back and forward to appointments because of the ectopic pregnancy. This made any attempts to move on really difficult. I knew from the start that my pregnancy wasn’t viable, but for as long as the ‘baby’ was still inside me, and as long as I had to keep going to the hospital, there couldn’t be any moving on. There was a huge sense of relief all over me when the nurse told me I was discharged. I can start looking to the future. I am actually feeling quite positive about the coming months.

Date Day with the sister

I went for lunch with my sister, Danielle, which is always nice. We then went to the cinema to watch Baywatch. Gratitude Post #6 - Thank you JuneWe had been looking forward to watching the film for a while, even though it had received some bad reviews.  As it turns out, the film was actually really funny. I wouldn’t mind watching it again.

Father’s day

Father’s day was this month so I spent some quality time with Molly making gifts for Chris. We made a handprint superhero card which turned out way better than I thought it would. Chris seemed to be impressed anyway. Gratitude Post #6 - Thank you JuneWe also made Chris a ‘Dad’ canvas painting which he has put up on the wall already.Gratitude Post #6 - Thank you June

Yoga

I have been saying for months that I want to lose some weight and lead a healthier lifestyle. If anything though, I have gained weight. I really need to step up my efforts and in a bid to do so, I have started doing yoga. Molly loves it and joins in with me. She is actually quite good at remembering the poses. And it turns out; I can still do a handstand! Go mama.. Go mama

Portraits

Me and my sister have been trying to get some decent pictures of the kids together for months and months. One of them is either staring in the wrong direction, or crying, or they are refusing to stand next to each other. You know how it is. This month though we managed to get these two pictures of them. Together. Looking and acting like humans. I am really pleased with how they turned out.

Nice Weather

We had some nice weather again this month which meant we could spend more time outdoors and in the garden. Though I am not grateful for the pollen! Sunny weather usually means getting the pool out and having a BBQ which is always fun. Again, apart from the pollen!

 

So that is my ‘Gratitude Post #6 – Thank you June’ round-up. Things are still a little bit tough for me at the minute but I am definitely feeling more positive about the future now.

How was your month? What are you grateful for?

Sam x



*UPDATE*

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  1. Nancy 01/07/2017 at 22:01

    What a beautiful post. I am so sorry for your loss and can’t begin to imagine what that feels like. I find the post beautiful because you are taking time to find the positivity around you. I love the pictures of your child and niece.

    1. stressymama 01/07/2017 at 22:38

      Thank you x

  2. Cait Mathieu 01/07/2017 at 23:22

    I am so moved by how you’ve decided to just park on gratitude as your heart is grieving and healing. I am so very sorry for your loss. That has to be incredibly difficult and painful to have to deal with. Thank you for sharing your heart. I love how you have made posts about being grateful for what you have in your life. I had a miscarriage and have found comfort in focusing on what I am grateful for.
    https://duetojoy.com/journal/grief-and-gratitude

    With joy,
    Cait Mathieu
    duetojoy.com

    1. stressymama 01/07/2017 at 23:27

      Thank you for a lovely comment x

  3. Sylvie Hanes 02/07/2017 at 00:24

    I am so sorry for what you have been through. I am impressed that you have taken the time to identify things for which you are grateful. This really shows you have a big heart. Thanks for sharing

    1. stressymama 02/07/2017 at 04:36

      Thank you x

  4. Lisa Pomerantz 02/07/2017 at 12:01

    What a very beautiful and moving post, taken with authentic gratitude through the most difficult of situations. My deepest sympathies for your loss, and my heightened awareness of your gratitude. You are a special one indeed. Feel better. <3

    1. stressymama 02/07/2017 at 12:53

      Awww thank you Lisa for such a lovely comment. It really means a lot x

  5. Rachel neal 02/07/2017 at 20:11

    So glad that you have been discharged and you are now able to start moving on and trying your best to get everything straight in your head. It sounds like you ave been through a lot so it is nice to be able now to grieve in your way. xx

    1. stressymama 03/07/2017 at 07:24

      Thank you x

  6. Kizzy 03/07/2017 at 06:57

    Great post, glad you’ve finally been discharged. It’s such a great idea to look back at the good as it is so easy to focus on the negatives.

    1. stressymama 03/07/2017 at 07:25

      Thank you x

  7. Kara 03/07/2017 at 14:43

    I am so sorry for your loss but glad you are now discharged and can start moving on. Love the pictures of the cousins – too cute

  8. Musings of a tired mummy...zzz... 03/07/2017 at 20:35

    So sad for you loss, so brave of you to write about it especially in a gratitude post. I’m glad your family are there to support you. Take care, Lx

  9. Fashion and Style Police 04/07/2017 at 09:28

    I am so sorry for your loss. I love your positive energy. I should be a little more grateful and this has inspired me to think differently.

  10. Lisa (mummascribbles) 04/07/2017 at 13:26

    So sorry for your loss – I can’t imagine how hard it must be to keep having to go to appointments. What a lovely way to help with it though, by focussing on the positives. Thanks for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday

  11. Fiona Cambouropoulos 04/07/2017 at 23:06

    Like everyone says, a horrible time to have gone through and I’m sure it has occupied your every waking thought. Molly sounds like a great reason to be thinking positive and looking forward. Fingers crossed for a much happier second half of summer, the experience will be with you forever but managing it going forward will be key. #TwinklyTuesday

  12. Karen, the next best thing to mummy 05/07/2017 at 08:57

    I am very sorry for your loss but I am sure that this post will help many women going through a similar experience, I have had many health issues, including a massive stroke which has left me disabled and a non related brain tumour, I am grateful that I had three amazing sons before any of this happened#familyfun@_karendennis

  13. Jenny 05/07/2017 at 10:22

    Sounds like the end of the month was more upbeat for you, nice weather always helps x Hopefully the rest of the year will be positive too !
    Jenny x http://www.ajennysaved.com

  14. upasna 05/07/2017 at 10:28

    Sorry to hear that Sam. Wishing you fast healing. But as you said, you need to move on – for others and for yourself. I am too experiencing the power of gratitude. I have started with #gratitudepie on Instagram for daily gratitude. I hope you can join. #FamilyFunLinky

  15. Dean of Little Steps 05/07/2017 at 10:42

    Sorry to hear about your ectopic pregnancy 😦 A gratitude list is a great way though to remind us of what we have, especially during rough times like this. I find that it’s an instant perk-me-upper when I’m feeling down. Sending you positive vibes over blogosphere. xx

  16. Karen two tiny hands 05/07/2017 at 22:32

    Ilove your Father’s Day crafts they are super cute. I admire your courage for staying positive and trying to get on with life after your eptopic pregnancy, can’t be easy. The pictures of the girls are adorable, well done! ‪Thank you for linking up to the #familyfunlinky‬

  17. Ali Duke 06/07/2017 at 13:01

    I’m sorry for your loss. I’ve had an ectopic pregnancy so I know how hard it is. I am glad that you have had some lovely moments this month.
    #TriumphantTales

  18. Elinor Hill aka Beach Hut Cook 06/07/2017 at 16:55

    So sad for you on losing your baby. I had miscarriages and they are heartbreaking. I had counselling and although it was tough, it helped me in so many other ways.

    Like you, I try to keep positive and Yoga is a great way to feel balanced and even. I love it and I feel like liquid gold afterwards! Elinor x

  19. Fridgesays 06/07/2017 at 21:00

    #dreamteam and #triumphanttales I do love a gratitude post, they make me appreciate similar things in my life. Sorry to hear your sad news, but fab that you can see some light again x

  20. Tammymum 09/07/2017 at 08:34

    Well done on starting yoga, thats really good and will do wonders for your wellbeing. I had no idea Baywatch was in the cinemas ( living under rock apparently) glad to hear it was good and you enjoyed though! #triumphanttales

  21. Mrs Mummy Harris 09/07/2017 at 11:52

    I’m so pleased you’re in a better place, that fathers day card looks amazing! you got some art skills there!
    Thank you so much for sharing this with at #TriumphantTales. I hope to see you back next week.

  22. Rhyming with Wine 09/07/2017 at 14:17

    I am so very sorry for your loss and I can only imagine what you have been through. I truly applaud you for reflecting on the positives though and I’m so pleased that you can start to look forward now having been discharged from the hospital. Wishing you a happy July lovely. Thanks for linking to #DreamTeam x

  23. Louise (Little Hearts, Big Love) 10/07/2017 at 10:30

    I’m so sorry for your loss, what a hard month it must have been for you especially with all the hospital appointments back and forth. Hope looking for the positives has helped you through this time. I love your superhero Father’s Day cards and the photos of the kids together. We have the same paddling pool – my two are really outgrowing it now though! #twinklytuesday

  24. Holly - Little Pickle's Mom 10/07/2017 at 11:59

    Oh darling, it must be so hard to focus on the positives when you’ve been through so much but WELL DONE you for being able to see the things to be grateful for. The nice weather definitely does help doesn’t it? And the portrait photos are lovely.

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